white skies

i look up and my eyes wander
to every detail and every inch
of your edges
mapping where i can plant my soft touches
yet scolding my hands
not to
ever
though you are beaming with starlight
your countenance
sends teardrops to fall incessantly
inside
'cause you're too white
and high as the skies
above me
yes, you are



i miss my dog :)

salamat po

sa umagang hindi ko inaasahang darating pa
sa mga notebook at lapis na nagsisilbing kalayaan ko
sa hopiang monggo na pumawi ng sakit ng tyan
sa pintong hindi humadlang sa tawag ng kalikasan
sa maligalig na araw pangtuyo ng nakatulugang labada
sa kaibigang nakalimutan kong tulungan
sa orasang bantay at paalala
sa tunog ng treng nagtatanggol na maayos pa ang aking pandinig
sa nanay at tatay na parang thermometer na consistent sa pagmo-monitor
sa aking mga biik na marunong maghugas ng pinggan, maglaba, magplantsa, at mag-ipon
sa mukhang muli kong masisilayan
sa tatay sa Panginoon na laging nangangaral
sa dalawang tinig na lagi kong nami-miss

kahit hindi ako karapat-dapat sa mga ipinagpapasalamat ko

salamat po

calm you

it is the blue-ness or green-ness of the sea
maybe the still water or the sudden bursts of waves
that pulls and pushes
mixing the colors in my eye palette
the tree firm and unyielding
inches away from the shoreline
leaves and branches swaying rhythmically
to the shy hush of the water
a stretch of land in the horizon
pale yet sending a promise of adventure
once the sky forgets its looming over
anything and everything
it pleases to blanket over
all these images
in a perfectly square picture
revealing
acknowledging
crushing
suffocating
calming
calmness
calm
you.

moonlight

beauty i have never fully seen

not until light shows up and finds home

on the strands of  your hair

you are more enchanting in moonlight

filtered with everything admirable in you

grace period

once a man broke my heart quite intentionally and it reallly hurt so bad. i laid in bed and watched tv for three days without sleeping. just by looking at my face you could enjoy a horror movie that would scare and hunt you for days. i lost weight so much i bought a handful of safety pins just to fit myself into my clothes. when i thought i was about lose myself, i prayed to God to take all the pain away. i told Him that i know everything happens for a reason and i trust Him with all my heart that He knows what's best for me.

forgiveness was a different issue though. truthfully, i had a hard time forgiving that man. i couldnt find a single cell of reason in my brain that  would make him leave me the way he did. it was only after some time that i was able to say that i have truly forgiven him. and i thank God for that. He made me realize that no matter how badly people treat you, you should always have a loving and forgiving heart.

a while ago, when ate luz was getting reactions from the brethren about today's topic, i thought to myself what i would say if she asked me. i was surprised to feel tears trickling down on my face. confused as i was, i started to question what i really felt... it was gratitude. I cannot imagine the magnitude of God's faithfulness and kindness to every human being that He even gave us a 'grace period' through Christ's one thousand year reign.

in my heart i know God loves me. i have given Him so many heartaches but still He paints a smile on my face whenever He thinks i needed it. i believe He is just asking for one thing among others through today's topic... that i, we, should give kindness to all and always extend our own 'grace period' to everyone. hard and laborious as it may seem, it will bear fruit someday as Kuya Daniel and Brother Eli said.

happy thanksgiving.  :)