that feels something like impatience and helplessness
though hope insists and persists
at one point in time everyday
my head would feel light and bloated
then hot water would burst and flow from there
to the nearest entrance to a world worthy of loathness
but a big ball rolled of realities that i need to swallow and digest
it is needed a heavy burden to carry every waking, walking,
sitting, talking, standing, listening, eating, and sleeping hour
yet my heart is thankful
so thankful for this disheartening experience
and for those to come
i'm ready
my heart's ready
finally
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